falling AWAY

I can't remember when it was good
moments of happiness elude
maybe I just misunderstood

all of the love we left behind
watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find

so I'll love whatever you become
and forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun 
I think our lives have just begun

and I'll feel my world crumbling, 
and I'll I feel my life crumbling
and feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away,
falling away with you

staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
I hope I won't forget a thing

promise to hold you close and pray
watching the fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same

and all of the love we threw away
and all of the hopes we've cherished fade
making the same mistakes again 
making the same mistakes again

and I feel my world crumbling, 
and I feel my life crumbling down,
I can feel my soul crumbling away,
and falling away,
falling away with you

all of the love we left behind
watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find
memories I will never find

muse-falling away from you

hariku maghrib... aku teringinkan subuh

lately aku asyik rase aku mcm menumbuk kt bantal yg tersgt lembut... tak rse pape.. tak jd pape... berape byk aku tumbuk pun tak gune..berape kuat aku menumbuk pun tak gune... takde pape pun jd.. letih je yg aku dpt... mcm ade sial plak melekat kt aku... ape la aku nak buat ni.. tak kire berape keras aku kerje.. nampaknye.. tak de satu pun membuahkan hasil.. mcm2 lg mslh dtg kt aku ade la.. hmmmm... mgkn ni cubaan utk aku.. aku akan cube amik positif wlpn aku dah tak berape nak larat.. seriusly... i need a break.. pernah aku terpk utk berenti kt sini je, then start mende bru tp keadaan ckit pun tak bg aku peluang.. life must go on anyway.. the show must go on.. i'll figure it out...

mari layan lagu ni... tepat kene kt dahi aku...

Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel like my only friend
Is the city I live in, the city of angels
Lonely as I am, together we cry

I drive on her streets 'cause she's my companion
I walk through her hills cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds and she kisses me windy
I never worried, now that is a lie

I don't ever wanna feel like I did that day
Take me to the place I love, take me all the way
I don't ever wanna feel like I did that day
Take me to the place I love, take me all the way

It's hard to believe that there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe that I'm all alone
At least I have her love, the city she loves me
Lonely as I am, together we cry

I don't ever wanna feel like I did that day
Take me to the place I love, take me all the way
I don't ever wanna feel like I did that day
Take me to the place I love, take me all the way

Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away


RHCP-under the bridge




*sesiape yg berkenaan... tlg la bg sapot... kerjesame... aku sgt perlukan mende2 tu.. aku tak larat buat sorg..

ape nak buat...

sedang gua syok2 mnm air tea o panas sensorg tetibe terlintas kt dlm kepale otak gua... ape gua buat skang? kerje ade.. tp mcm xde. gua ade dgr ura2 yg gua ni tgu time je nak kene terminate. mcm mne agaknye mase depan gua... gua sebenarnye bekas penjawat awam tp gua berenti sbb ade sbb2 tertentu. gua terime ofer yg kononye lebih baik dr kerje lame gua. hmmm.. skang thing dah jd upside down. gua plak skang ni tgh terumbang ambing dgn dunia gua sndr. gua xberape nak nmpk plak mse depan gua. tp siyesli... gua xgive up lg. cume gua rse gua agak penat kebelakangan ni. gua tgh reke lagi jln2 yg bleh bwk gua menuju kejayaan. tp stakat yg ade ni.. jln gua sume kabur.. peluang peluang yg gua amik xjgk menmpkkan mse depan gua... tp gua tetap yakin.. hehehehe.. klo nak diikutkan hati.. nak je gua blk kg bwk bot.. tp... klo bleh.. gua xnak campor bisnes keluarge  gua.. klo bleh.. bia gua ade gua sndr. yg tu simpan utk adk2 gua ke abg gua ke.. mne tau kan... skang.. bank cr gua... hahahha..xpe wahai encik bank.. nnt gua dah establish gua cr lu plak ea.. lu dah byk duit.. nnt gua ok gua baya la.. xyah la anta surat ugutan.. wa pun xleh buat ape.. duit dlm poket nak mkn pom xckp.. huhuhu.. tgu akhir thn ea.. mne tau projet gua meletop..

ps. gua tgh berusaha sakan ni!

D7000 plak kua.. adei... 

agak la...

agak lame gua x updated blog gua ni... huhuuhhuuh.. dah beberape kali gua buat cubaan nak updated blog ni... tpnye asyik tergendala je. dan at last berjaya jugak gua taip beberape patah perkataan kt cni.. hehehe... ape gua nak tulih ni eaaa... haaa.. hmmmm.... huuuu...heeeee.... bapak lah! mne idea ni... damn... ah.. nnt2 la.. hehehehe.. bye..

deadbeat holiday...

Wake up, The house is on fire 

And the cat's caught in the dryer 

Philosophy's a liar when 

Your home is your headstone 

"Icon" is the last chance for hope 

When there's no such thing as heroes 

Your faith lies in the ditch that 

You dug yourself in 

Last chance to piss it all away 

Nothing but hell to pay 

When the lights are going down 

Deadbeat Holiday - celebrate your own decay 

There's a vacant sign that's hanging high 

On a noose over your home 

Deadbeat Holiday - get on your knees and pray 

There's a vacant sign that's hanging high 

But at least you're not alone 

Christmas lights in the middle of August 

Grudges come back to haunt us 

Your oldest allies are your long lost enemies 

Grounded in a duplex to find that 

You're living on a landmine 

Vacation hotspots is a cemetery drive 

Last chance to piss it all away 

Nothing but hell to pay 

When the lights are going down 

Deadbeat Holiday - celebrate your own decay 

There's a vacant sign that's hanging high 

On a noose over your home 

Deadbeat Holiday - get on your knees and pray 

There's a vacant sign that's hanging high 

But at least you're not alone 

Last chance to piss it all away 

Nothing but hell to pay when all you 

Want to do is...not to....give up...... 

something

There is something just to note, there's something just to be felt, and there is something to be known and felt. Want to feel something just to note, is the vanity. Also want to know something only to be felt. Strangely is, the tendency to feel that in mind and also knows that to be especially large.This is what aroused anxiety.

mungkinkah menjadi milikku?

hello hello how long...

selamat,

dah lame gile aku x update blog aku kan? hahaha.. byk keje siot.. kerje keras.. pastu acces ke internet plak xde... huhuhuhu.. duduk kaw mcm ni mmg mcm ni. broadband jgn cite la.. line ade.. tp xleh nk main tenet. tgu aku msk streamyx nnt.. ngeh ngeh ngeh...

ok.. korg mesti nak tau ape dah jd ngan aku kan... (sape xnak tau jgn byk komplen plak) byk mse aku kt laut, klo kt darat pun travel g ctu g cni... abeh keje kt darat aku msk platform blk... aku dah pandai bawak pambot! hahahaha... laluan laot pun alhamdulillah... mne2 kawasan permainan aku bleh la aku konfiden nak bwk siang atau mlm... amacam? mcm org laot x? mcm2 peristiwa dah aku lalu, hehehe.. ribut, ombak besar, ombank kecik, hujan, panas, bln gelap, bulan cerah, mancing, menjala, membubu, tanam seaweed, harvest seaweed, proses etc... ade yg syok ade yg xsyok.. hehehhe.. adat la tu kan...

pape pun.. aku kabar baik kepadde sape yg nak tye kaba aku... hehehe.. n fb aku deactivated buat sementara waktu atas sbb2 keselamatan... waktu sesuai nnt aku on blk iAllah...

tata...

*xde ke sesape nk dtg jejln cni? aku dah ade bot ni... hehehhe...

apakah masalahnya...

Paham la sikit. Jangan la main hentam. Semua orang pun ada masalah masing-masing. Kalau main taram sahaja, mana boleh. Kalau kita yang nak orang, kita kene la pandai-pandai main. Kalau main hentam mana boleh. Orang sahaja yang nak kene paham. Tak boleh la macam tu. Tekanan la. Ada apa-apa... bagitahu la elok-elok. Jangan la asyik pikir diri sendiri sahaja yang penting. Apa yang orang lain buat semua tidak penting. Tolonglah, saya bukan belajar ilmu hitam ataupun magik untuk sentiasa peka dengan setiap permasalahan. Kene bagitahu, barulah tahu... Ya? Tak susah pun. Buang ego tu. Jangan jadi bodoh sombong. Tak ada orang pun yang suka orang bodoh sombong ni. OK? ingat pesanan ni... biarlah bertempat... biarlah bertempat... biarlah bertempat...

hish... AKU PUN TAK PAHAM!




*bullshit...
bapok bz gile.. xdan aku nak update ke ape ke... tlg phm eh? ni pun nasib baik ade wifi dkt2 cni.. tu pun line mcm haram.. huhuhuhu

ME for the last 4 days...

aku lepak kt rmh air keluarga suluk... smbl prepare utk tapak research yg lain... mls nk cite.. tgk gamba eh?

 dapor...

 tuan umah dgn anaknye

 matehari senja

 bg mkn ikan kerapu dlm sngkar

bot yg sgt senang terbalik

 check seaweed

 fav shot aku...

 matehari dah terbenam

 mknan kami

rupe mknan kami

 bilis yg ditangkap sndr

 klo dah terer bleh berdiri smbil kayuh... hehehe.. klo x terer.. terbalik! ahahaha

 amacam? terer x? hahahha

hutan belakang tu la yg kami cari kayu

merepair rmh yg tumpang tido (amik ati tuan umah ni.. hehehhe)

sumber cahaya kami di waktu mlm... 

*amacam?